But then what if he knew who you were when you know that you're not what he thinks that he wants? And then what if you are, what a prince would envision? Although how can you know who you are till you know what you want, which don't.
Today I 'fixed' two things that made me very happy! My jeans have all begun to have problems. {This is not out of the ordinary!} I don't think I own a single pair of jeans that is not too big, has a hole in them, or has to have a pin used to keep the zipper in place. {TMI Carm, I know,..sorry y'all!!}
I spent an hour or so patching up the holes in three pair of my 'denim uniforms'! I wasn't sure how well it was going to work out, as I don't actually have patches and just hand sewed the holes up....but I have worn one pair the rest of the day and its fine!
After that, I finally got the left over paper off my ceiling! During Christmas time, I strung up snowflakes on the ceiling, with three flakes each to a strip of paper. I didn't want to try to get them down the same way I got them up as that was a bit risky, standing on a chair that was balanced on my bed! I was able to buy a long stick that is long enough to reach the highest spot of my room. I was able to pull down all the scraps with the exception of two tiny bits. Looks so much better!
#ItsTheLittleThings
Things have a tendency to stay with you....even in China. This is posted on the wall of our lobby hallway
Ok,maybe not all the time! These are the boards students made for culture week...just tossed in a storage room! :(
I'm not a narcissistic! Honest!
There are a lot of articles out there in regards to how self centered we have become thanks to social media. We think that people actually want to see all of our selfies, know what we are eating for lunch, and hear about every little detail pertaining to our daily lives.
Now I will admit, that there is a certain amount of warm fuzzies that come from the idea of people reading my blog, following along with all of the 东西 {dongxi....stuff} that is my life. When I made the decision to do #ItsTheLittleThings, I actually imagined some people rolling their eyes. 'Are you serious? You think you are that important that we need to hear from you ever day?'. I even roll my eyes when I think of it from that angle!
So let me put this out there.
No, I don't.
And this isn't for you!
Its for me.
That's the cold truth.
Now if that doesn't make me look even more self centered and selfish, I don't know what will,
So on with the explanation and trying to dig myself out of this one.
When I began preparing for the semester to begin, I had a horrible attitude about it.
It was very reminiscent of the attitude I had when I arrived in China for the summit/camp back in June.
I didn't want to be here.
Strange, even in my own head, when being in America and staying there long term is not something I like thinking about. {Sorry family! It has nothing to do with you! Has everything to do with my heart having been stolen by a passel of little smiles!!}
I was convinced that this semester was going to be horrible.
Growing up, I remember not liking creamed corn on toast. Mum {and Dad too actually!!} would tell me to pretend I liked it. Not because I needed to change my taste and begin to want to eat the yellow mush {ehem..sorry} but because it would change my attitude about eating what was put in front of me. I didn;t have to like it but I had to have the right attitude about it.
The articles I have read also go on to say how people only ever post the good things about their lives.
Bubble gum and butterflies.
The house is always in order, we are always thankful, the sun always shines, and dirt is never tracked into the kitchen.
That is not the point of my thanksgiving, rainbows and sunshine a day post.
No, the real reason behind it is that if all day I am focused on what I am going to post about, what makes me happy today, then I find things!
Some may end up being backhanded joy, to be honest!
Because I feel that I have been told to be thankful for all things and in all things,somedays my small thing might be that my back hurt and something came out of it. {I doubt I will ever post "I was in a lot of pain today...I am sure SOMETHING good will come of this. #ItsTheLittleThings" but it might be similar to 'I was having back spasms today so I spent the afternoon in bed and ended up being there when Kade had time to Skype! #ItsTheLittleThings}
This project of mine is to focus my mind on the right place.
Because "Every good gift and perfect gift is from above and cometh down from the Father of lights, with him is no variableness, neither shadow of turning"
Even the Little Things.
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