Thursday, September 10, 2015

Milkshake

Even though I haven't started back to work yet, I have officially been hired back and so I am an employee. As such, my boss called the other day to tell me that I could come in and bring whomever I wanted to the employee sale days!! Mum and Dad will need little gifts to take with them to China for all of the people who will help them during the final stages of this adoption process. Because YC is made in the US, it makes for the perfect gift to give! 
While we were out, I stopped to get milkshakes at Steak N Shake. I had a buy one get one free coupon and wanted to treat my Mum, as she is always going above and beyond for everyone, both in my family and outside of it! She got a Caramel Apple Milkshake and I got a S'mores! 

THEY WERE SO GOOD! 

As much as there are days when I {already} get homesick for China and all of that life,
I have really been enjoying the little blessings of being able to talk to my family whenever
and about whatever. Not only talk, but spend time with, do nothing with {There has been a lot of 'Chuck', 'Star Trek Voyager', 'Call the Midwife' and 'Burn Notice' being watched!!} and
make plans for more exciting things. {Its also really great to finally be on this side of the adoption stuff and get to find things out the same time, in the same way as everyone else in the house!} 

Today was a good 'Mom' day! We talked a bunch and I got to hang out with her when we 
took the trip to get the candles. I may be 31, but a girl still needs her Mum!

#ItsTheLittleThings

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Little things again

I was going to start back to this on the first Monday of the month, trying to get myself back on track as far as posting. Alas, as you can see, I muffed that one!! haha! However, seeing as how Monday was a holiday I could say it technically counts as a weekend and NOT the beginning of the week...so....yeah? haha. I also really didn't do a whole lot yesterday, not that today was any mammoth milestone of a day! 

We had hoped that today would be my first day back to training at Yankee, but my employee number has still not come through so it will have to wait until next Monday. Means an extra week to just try and tackle the heaps and heaps of things I left behind. I am trying to be ruthless, throwing/giving away or selling anything I can do without, that I haven't thought of all year in China, or that I just know is silly to keep. This evening I started a Facebook yard sale in order to relieve the space of some of my things and try to earn some money for my return trip and life in China. I still have lots to post on it and I am hoping to be able to add things for many weeks as I continue to go through everything and learn more about what my return will look like etc. 

The temperature has gone back up, which has been great in my opinion! I am not ready to let summer go just yet! I love that I can walk out in my bare feet to take the trash out, and yet not feel even so much as chilly! 

For over a week I have been trying to get a quilt pattern for a friend of mine. The first time I couldn't seem to find it, and then once we finally did it wasnt open. Again then, Mum and I went yesterday. but of course it wasn't open. Today I went in and YAY, it was open and I got what I came for. Then, ended up staying for like 30 minuted talking to the guy whos wife owns the shopppe! It was kinda fun! 

Friday, I went across the street to a neighbour's house when I saw her out. I got to introduce myself as I knew she had met my family while I was gone. She has a cute-a-bug one and a half year old which was one of my excuses for going over. The biggest reason....she is Chinese and I so wanted to be able to use Mandarin. We talked for five or ten minutes, all in Chinese which was awesome! I understood everything she said, and she seemed to have no trouble with my language either. In the end, we both said how close our homes were and that we should head to the others house when the desire to speak something other than English struck! She is here with her husband and son, but knows few other people and is often very lonely, I gather. "Everyday, we are here, just him and me. Nothing to do. You are always welcome" was what she told me. 

Saturday, us girls struck out and got to the farmers market. after which we stopped in at another produce stand. Mum has been making meals with the Goliath of a broccoli we found for only three dollars! I LOVE IT! First corn on the cob I have had in a long time....which is silly seeing as how there is a street vendor for them right outside the gate of SIAS! 

Sunday I went to the Mandarin speaking Church down the road. It was so nice to be back with Believers from China again! Because it was the first service of the month, they had the Chinese and English services begin together in order to share Fathers Supper. It meant there was only one song sung in Chinese, which made me kinda sad, but it was nice to hear it none the less, and thankfully I knew the songs that were sung in English. After the service I spoke with a couple of people and got high praise for my language, which always does me well to hear! 

Everyday I grow more and more excited that Thomas will be here soon! 

I still have a ton of things to get done and it is 11pm! But things are 
ticking off my 'to do list' and making room for more!!
#ItsTheLittleThings

Here are a few photos from the past two weeks!
The farmers market

The produce stand

Such a nice day!

Gotta admit, I enjoy being back in the drivers seat!


Well,...two of us are paying attention!

Is she smiling to smile with me...or is she smiling to hold in the laughter AT me?

Mum is pretending the camera is not there
"Shes NOT here!"

People say she is a mini me...I just dont see it!! ;)

I told a friend about our Tree Canopied roads and how beautiful they 
become in Autumn. This isn't the best example of one, and the
leaves have not begun to turn at all yet, but it is a testament to
how lovely and green it is here in my home town!

I got to hang out with this little one about a week ago!!
LOVED IT!!

My little Ember! Oh how I missed her. 

Ember doesn't want to look, as she is too preoccupied by her 
lemonade, but that is ok. Sparks looks beautiful as always!

Ah...close enough! 
<3
Sparks and Ember!!
Two 'hot' girls! ;) 



Thursday, September 3, 2015

Home or home?


Today, well tonight, marks two weeks since returning to Michigan. I left China a month ago.
In the time since I've been back to the Mitt,I have hung out with my dear friend Sparks and see how much my little Ember has grown up! I have been given back my job at Yankee, in full! Not just a position there, but I have actually been given the 2nd assistant position back! Though I have not started back, as we are awaiting the results of my background check {Though they had to complete one before my previous employment, because I have been away for more than 6 months a new check must be made. It would seem then that it is only for the time not employed by YC....to which my reply was 'Good luck finding anything on me! There will be no US records!!'.} I had hoped that meant that I would hear back right away and would be able to begin work again next week, but as of this moment I have not heard from my boss. If they do not get it done before Monday, then I will start back to work the following Monday. Either way, I am beyond happy to be returning to work there and to only have to have 'refresher' training rather than going back to square one at a job! I know that this is not only a blessing but a rare occurrence here in MI, to be offered a job so quickly and be placed in management once again. The provision here and the amazing gift of it all is not lost on me, to be sure.

Speaking of gifts, I am sitting outside, in my parents backyard {You see...I am just visiting. This is not my home any longer! ;) This is my parents house and I am a guest here.} We got an awesome storm last night, and now the sun is out illuminating the wondrous green that surrounds me here in the patio. Two weeks ago when my plane touched down, the weather was on the chill side. I had a bit of a sinking feeling that my summer was now over and there would be less and less sun light. Not being able to fully see the screen due to the shining of the sun on me is such a welcome event!
Many times over I have been asked how I am adjusting to life back here in my families world. I always want to say that it hasn't quite sunk in yet, because I almost feel too adjusted and I just hope that its because I am in a dream state. There are moments when it feels like I have never spent any time away from this brick and siding building which has housed me for so much of my childhood. At other moments though, something will happen that is an all to glaring reminder that I have called another place home for the last year. I have changed. But, while there are times that it does seem strange to be back where I grew up, all in all I am so familiar with it that I am still at peace. I remember during winter break, talking with a friend who was spending the Holiday with her family in Minnesota. She had about the same feeling as I do. “I feel at home and that makes me unhappy and nervous since home is in China.” Its not that I ever want to feel out of place here with my family, it is just that I feel like I have another place where I belong more and when I feel at home in another, it makes me unsettled! Its strange I know, but it is how it goes.

I think I will try getting back into my 'Its The Little Things' posts.

My translator,Casey, from 2010 when I had two girls in Yantai.

Kat, LeyLey,Me, and Mercy in the Erqi tower in ZhengZhou one Saturday

We are cool...and know it!

Me on my first class train ride. That seat cost me 200 kuai more!

I made it into Seoul! Me with my Oppa Chris driving around the city!

Kent along the sea side in Monterey California!

It was gorgeous there, California!! I loved it! Took walks next to the water every day!






Sunday, August 30, 2015

An incomplete yet long wrap up!

I sit on a train right now, a million thoughts about my summer running through my brain. So far, I have yet to even so much as write an email about anything that happened, let alone a blog. Things kept me busy and I never had the determination needed to force myself. It was not for lack of interesting things to say. And in fact I knew that it was going to make it one hundred times harder once the summer was over, since it would result in a too long to read blog post. This is how it goes with me though. I am a feast or famine type of person it would seem. For months during the school semester I did well with a daily blog. Things got a bit tighter schedule wise,though, and I dropped it!
Let me see if I can break things up at all and try to come up with a good, all round update that will hit all the highlights. If I can change my personality a bit, perhaps I can then find it in myself to later fill in the blanks in further blogs. I do not hold out too much hope for that change, though, so I encourage you not to hold your breath.

First, I must go way back.

I graduated!

It was strange to have the ceremony that we did. It was weeks before our semester was officially over and when my name was called, I walked the lane and was handed an empty certificate holder, I had yet to complete three of my four final exams. Stranger yet was looking at my grades later in the summer and seeing that, if it was based off of them only, I would most likely not be allowed to graduate. They aren't taking it away from me though, and did in fact award me with an actual certificate which says I have graduated {Not only completed the course or a certain time frame, graduated} from the Intermediate level Chinese language and culture program. Given that all of that marked the end of my time as a SIAS student and put an end to my career in any capacity there at the university, I think I handled it all pretty well.

For months now I have been getting myself geared up and ready for things. Ready to be done school, prepared for leaving China, all set to work four weeks of camp and have my heart ripped out repeatedly, so on and so forth. Yet, it would seem that time and time again Father has set it up for me that there is always something to look forward to after so that I am not having to be broken for long. Me and my drama queen brain has been trying to work that out even on its own...I am so thankful for this fact, that I have always something more to look forward to so that I do not become too despondent and depressed. The thing I have been trying to work out is WHY I am allowed such a gift. I know that sounds like an odd thing to say and I am not trying to be ungrateful in the least.

All during camp, and even before really, I have had a friend who is going through a very rough time. Life for him is just not good and he often asks me why he can not have anything good in his life. I try to be a good friend, I try to give him answers from scripture and turn his eyes to the right place, but I often feel like a failure in this case. While things have not always been ice cream and marshmallows in my life, I have never felt like quitting life. When faced with the heartbreak of having to leave my home and the sick feeling in my stomach of not having certainty of a return, job upon my return, a home, money, etc, I am gifted with an awesome return trip! {Which I will go into more in a little bit. I just have to get these thoughts out of my head first.} Even something as silly as when I had to say goodbye to a group of kids that I love dearly, the next week would hold someone special in it to act as a soothing balm for my heart. When it was time to say goodbye to my sisters and walk away from them at the airport, not only did the fact that I would see them in three weeks help my big sister worries, but my sadness at goodbye was calmed by the knowledge that after a short train ride, I would be reunited with many dear friends from the camp staff team for a night in Beijing and then a flight to Korea. And in Korea, shortly after my goodbye to that group of people, I was unexpectedly blessed by a visit from my favourite Korean Oppa!!

This all not only reminds me that I am not equipped to ever tell someone in the depths of despair that I understand their pain, but also reminds me of how little I have had to endure and experience. Where is this thought train going, I really don't know. It is just something I have been mulling over for awhile now. Part of me wonders if I am that weak. I have always had something else to look forward to and to hold on to. I have always felt Father there with me, even if I took my eyes off for awhile and caused myself to feel distance. So how am I going to hold a 14 year old child and be able to offer comfort when they have no forever family to look forward to? Am I really going to be a good jiejie to a 16 year old who questions why she is in pain everyday and will never have a mother to hug her and give her a moments break from it all

You might be able to tell from this little rabbit trail that the theme of my summers heartbreak has once again been the unadoptable children. Before I go back to chronicling my summer in order here, let me tell you more about the kids that I cant think of without tears in my eyes.

Three summers ago, during my first year as a SIAS staff member, I met a boy who soon became known to me as Romeo. He is a symbol of strength to me. Unable to form many words, his vocal conversation is limited mostly to 'hao' {Good in Chinese} “OK” and sometimes a name or two. He can also grunt, laugh, cry, yell, and giggle. Due to his special need, others are needed to aid him in his eating, changing, bathroom, bathing, and walking. But the thing about Romeo is this. He can't 'speak' but he can tell the greatest jokes. He cant walk, but man does the kid move quickly! He can't feed himself, but he shows the most amazing bravery when giving his trust to those that provide him food and water. When he is thirsty, he opens his mouth, and motions with his never still hand and arm, that he wants a drink. Once you have brought him a cup, he throws his head back and waits for you to pour a small amount in so he can slowly gulp it down and try not to choke on it. Many times, for various reasons, he does choke and the liquid goes spraying around as he sputters and gasps for air. And yet, once he has stilled his breathing, he again throws his head back to allow you to give him more. After, the look in his eyes is nothing that can be mistaken for anything other than gratefulness.
Romeo has been my 'boyfriend' now for two years. This was his idea, and he seems very pleased with himself. We have a special way of communicating and I love it! Even if we are in a crowded room, he knows how to catch my eye and he always greets me with the biggest smile....often followed by a swift punch to the jaw, but I know that is in love. {And no this is not just me making something up to make myself feel better! ;) We play fight all the time and it is part of how we relate. But if you ask him if he loves me, he will give me a big hug and has even from time to time said it in words!} The past two summers, he has been the buddy of my sisters, which has made me very happy cause it meant that I was able to hang out with their family group more and also better able to explain to his family group why I was sticking so close! Thankfully my sisters both understood and were not upset. Or at least they did a great job of hiding it if they were and TOLD me they were OK with the fact that he asked me to sit with them often, or take his camp photo with him, or colour pictures in his book, things like that.
When I saw his name on the roster for week four, I was super excited to see him again. But as quickly as my heart soar, it broke.

Romeo is 14.

He will never have a forever family. No matter how much advocating I could do for him, no matter how many people I share his incredible awsomeness with, no matter how many others fall in love with him as much as I have, he will never be able to have a mom and dad. This fact not only breaks my heart, but makes me more angry than I can say! In the past, I have said it and mean it....I do not know a single 14 year old that does not still need parents! Laws that keep kids that age and older from being in anything other than an orphanage/foster/care home setting are just wrong. I want to scream, I want to yell, I want to change things. And I can't. It is for this reason that I will continue to go back to China as much as I can. If they can not be with a family then family will come to them! I am glad to know the home in which he lives and I do not fear that he is not treated well or that his childhood has been one of pain and neglect. Yet even the very best of foster group homes and orphanages do not compare to that of an actual home setting with parents and other loved ones. It is also my hope that our camp never becomes one for the adoptable only! Should that ever happen....I guess I would have to start up my own for those children of my heart! ;)
Me and my Romeo


Ok, lets see.
Highlights:

I was given the position of Translator Coordinator once again! YAY!!! I love that job. Even after feeling like I failed it big time last summer, I was excited to be allowed another crack at it! Beyond that, I was partnered with an amazing young lady! She was so fantastic! Janet taught me so much and I loved watching as she grew this summer as well!

We had a new challenge this summer! Along with our usual translators, we were testing out a new concept that we called “Chinese Family Groups” or CFG's. These were family groups formed by two Chinese students and the children, rather than a student or two with a foreign buddy.

I feel that my Chinese improved over the summer as I got to speak with children often as well as interact with translators in more Chinese. It is still not where I want it to be, and my goal that I have set for myself, and something I shared with every weeks group of wonderful translators, is to one day be able to host/hold meetings all in Chinese! No translator necessary and no English needed. It is far off in the future, but there will be a day, Lord willing and should He tarry, where people will hear me speak and not know I was born in America unless they look at me! ;)

“Give the phone to Ya Hui” There are many ways in which I love to hear my Chinese name used, but this has got to go down as one of my top favs! On the way out of China after camp, one of my traveling companions was getting regular calls from his favourite camper. She has a great grasp of the English language, but there are still many things in which she needs help when communicating. Once she learned that I was there as well, she would ask to have the phone handed to me when she could not understand what was being said or when she thought she was being misunderstood! He soon began to feel bad about it for my sake he said, because he would have to hand the phone to me, I would explain something or get an explanation which I would then relate to him before handing the phone back to him, only to have it repeated a few short minutes later. To tell you that was the best thing that could have happened to me that day is no understatement. She is an extremely sweet girl and I was so beyond happy to help him be able to talk with her. The fact that they both felt comfortable not only with me being part of their conversation but also trusting me to properly interpret the words being spoken,....it was a gift I tell ya! And just what I needed as I was leaving the homeland of my heart!




I went on a first class train ride! Never done that before. When I got to the train station in Zhengzhou, I found out that all the tickets were sold out! It would have cost far too much money to return to Sias for the night and try again the next day, so I had to opt for the only thing left available for me. It was a 500 RMB seat on a train that was over five hours later.  

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Smile, I know that You're working so I smile...

I had a really frustrating day at work and I'm still
worn out and tired, as well as being frustrated with a 
few other things. You would think that means I had 
an awful day. The strange thing is..I didn't!
Nothing great happened, I haven't had any
good news that has made me forget about anything
going on. Working out did make me happy,but
at the same time I was only able to complete about
20 minutes before deciding it was best to call it a day on
the working out {Due to still being sick} 
And yet I was still able to smile and laugh all day
and today most things were actually able to roll 
off my back! 
The only answer for that is Father! :) 
#ItsTheLittleThings!

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

How do you say "throw up" again?

I was up late talking to a couple friends online, and both had just said that 
I really should log off and call it a night, when there was a rather creepy knock
at my door. In Chinese, I called out to ask who it was and only heard a raspy noise as a reply.
Going to the door, I said it again, with the same response, only this time in amidst the
weak raspy voice I heard my name. 
Can you say SPOOKY?! I can! And I did! I nearly didn't open the door!
Pretending more bravery than I felt at 2 in the morning, I opened the door only to be met
by the slumped over form of a new arrival. She has only been
at our school for about a weeks time, and it was evident
she was not doing well. I was the only one she knew, so she came across
the hall to tell me she was extremely sick and had been for hours. 
"I need to go to the hospital and I have to have a Chinese speaker with me. 
Earlier today when I told a new friend that I was sick, she said 
it wouldn't be possible for me to go by myself." She explained. 
Even at this early hour, it became quickly apparent that she was under
the misguided understanding that *I* could be that person. 
Reaching for my cell phone, I told her to head back to her room and I would 
call my boss to see about getting help sent to us.
Though I myself would probably have 'toughed it out' and
not wanted to go to the hospital/clinic at 2 in the morning
she was insistent that I get her to some sort of Emergency care. 
My boss' phone said it was busy, nor did she answer her text messages, so I 
grabbed a hoodie and went to get the front door opened. 
Our first stop was the clinic on campus. When I had walked all through that place looking for help
I resorted to calling the teacher in charge of student affairs. {This student does not fall
under his care, for all I can tell, it is my office' responsibility.} He told me
to call look for a number posted around there somewhere to call the
nurse. {I love the confidence of those around me in my speaking
ability at 2 am! Often I am not making full sense in English at such an hour
let along a language in which I am still in deep study!} 
The nurse told me that there was no one there that would
be able to help her and if she really needed attention, then we would
need to get a taxi at the front gate and go downtown to the hospital. 
And so off we were. Two pajama clad ladies walking down the PITCH BLACK streets of
the SIAS campus. Through my own fear and trepidation I had to laugh. This feeling
of joy in midst of trial stuck with me for the entire ordeal to be honest!
We got a taxi, the driver of which was very confused as to why we would want
to go to the hospital at such an hour as his fee would be double the days price. {"During the day you can go there for 5RMB, it is going to be 10RMB at this time of night, You sure you don't want to wait a few hours?" he asked me} 
He chatted with me the entire trip, and inquired as to how we expected to be able 
to cope at the hospital with no translator! I will admit that at first his desire
to keep a running conversation with me was a bit annoying, but I was later very thankful
as it seemed to help get my mind in the right setting to be talking in so much Chinese. 
Talking about silly things like where I was from, the fact that I was 
a student not a teacher, that I was in fact 31 and yes still only a student 
{we arrived before he had a chance to ask if I was single}
all of these little things and the banter that I held with him, served to put me at a bit
more ease though at first I was tensed by it. 
We arrived at the hospital and the driver told me which door to 
take her into. They knew, at first sight, we must be from SIAS and also seemed to
be a bit taken aback that we were not accompanied by an actual Chinese speaker. 
I explained to them that I was in fact that one on this trip meant to be the go between. 
And so it began.

Thankfully their triage and admittance  system is very different
than that which I am use to in my homeland, as I have no idea how to translate
most of what would be needed had we been in America! 
In reality I only needed to provide them with her name and age,
I tried to tell them where she is from but I don't know how to say 
Jamaica in Chinese, and since I was being listed as the contact info,
they just put my phone number and nationality down. 
They showed me to the room where R {The patient} could lie down, and 
then proceeded to explain procedure to me. The doc had already been in and 
didn't examine her in the least, but listened to my explanation of the symptoms 
and saw that she was in distress, so he wrote up a mile long list of meds. 
His expression told me that while he was not exactly put out by
our being there at such an hour, he wasn't very worried and seemed
to think this was the normal travelers gut. {R mused later that she was
worried she had one of the horrible cases that use all the numbers and
letters as their names....I don't want to type it. But anyway. She was convinced she 
was dying, and that had she not come to get me, we would have found her lifeless
body this morning. You may be able to tell from my speech that I myself
am under no such conviction, but I do understand her fears given the situation.} 


Once she was settled into the room, they gave me 
her new 'hospital card' with strong, specific instructions NOT to lose it, 
as this would be needed should she ever need to return.
My task was now to go across the parking lot to the main portion of the
out patient building to pay the fees and get her meds. 
Both at the cashier and pharmacy, they were able to scan that card
and up popped R's new patient record. 
They gave me two bags full of tiny glass vials, IV bottles,
powders and pills, before I returned to the nurses with my loot. 
They mixed all the different glass vials and loaded up needles and
the IV bottles {It wasn't the IV bags I am use to in the States, these are 
a bit different, some being made of glass while others are plastic.} 


{We were not the only ones there at such an insane hour of the day!}

R was very afraid of needled and was not liking the idea of them 
trying to get an IV into the back of her hand, as she said that in every 
other hospital she has ever been to they are unable to find the veins there. She had me translate
that they should put it in the crook of her elbow, near the top, in the only visible vein. 
Our younger nurse left the room for a moment and returned with her colleague. I again
explained the situation, both of her fear of needles and her insistence that they would be unable
to stick her hand. She sweetly said she would use the tiniest needle possible, and then
very plainly  told me that she would in fact me able to get it in the hand,
and not to worry. She had R hold her hand in a certain manner, and seconds later was setting the drip to the now inserted IV, much to the surprise of the patient who was still
not sure that it had even been accomplished!
{No one has EVER gotten it, she said more than once} 
'We have a different approach to things like this than other countries!" 
The nurse told me. 
"We treat blood in a different manner." 
It was then time to settle in and wait for the first bottle to empty, 
as I would then need to go inform them it needed to be changed. 
After a little while, I was feeling very parched, and R was needing something to 
at least wet her lips as she had not been able to eat nor drink since sometime in the afternoon
the day before. 
The first time I went out to look, I returned unsuccessful. 
However, there was a kind local fellow there who urged me that if I just
walked a little further, I was sure to find some store open at 4:30 in the morning
where I could obtain a bottle of water. 
And so, after another IV bottle change, I once again set off in search 
of the refreshments. I had to laugh {Out loud no less!} 
at the sight I must have made!
"What would my Dad think of this?" I actual said out loud.
"I am out wondering around the streets of a Chinese city in my pajamas at 4:30 in the morning."
When I did find a small shop open, as you may be able to imagine,
I caused a bit of a scene! 
Though they did not know I could understand what they were saying,
the local men who were out playing a game on the street were all
very astonished at this disheveled pale foreign girl walking past. 
Two of them followed me into the store and stood staring at me, 
moving to the end of each aisle as I looked for something to eat should 
I need it later. They pondered out loud if I would even be able
to understand how much the items cost, and marveled when I 
spoke up that I didn't want a plastic bag since I could just put it in my large
purse. 




I'm really not sure what this contraption is, here on the left, but I have a feeling I actually don't want to know!






I was very thankful that I had made the choice to wear my new long but thin lounge pants to bed! I was kept comfy and decent during our hospital stay!





R was finished with her final IV bottle and released at about 6am.
We left in search of a return taxi, but stopped first to get some cleaning 
supplies for the room back on campus that had served as her sick room before 
coming to get me! The shop keeper was in about as much awe of the two of us as 
the men had been hours earlier. Only he was more vocal about things. 
He said he knew I was of course from SIAS, but was surprised to learn
I was a student and not a teacher. 
He ended the conversation with the usual:
"You are really fat!" 

I told R as we left "You have now conquered a Chinese hospital experience! 
What can't you do now!"

In some ways I felt this exact way about myself. 
I was thinking about how I wanted to write up this adventure 
and I really didn't want it to sound like a boast piece about me and my 'skills'
with the language and all. 
Instead, here are some of the things that I took out of this
1.I was so thankful that I was up at 2 in the morning talking to my friends,
as I know I would never have heard her knock had I been asleep!
2. It was amazing how even in things as tiny as what I chose to wear to bed
was a set up for what was to come! When I left my room, I had no idea
that I would be wondering the streets hours later, in search of water. But instead of my
normal apparel, I had worn things a bit more fitting for a late night stroll and ER waiting.
3. She needed someone that was able to take a moment with her
to talk to Father before the needles and meds began. Had the 
teacher I got a hold of been the one to go with her,he would not have done that.
4. Aside from a little bit of uneasiness at the stares and presence of the men in the store, 
I was perfectly comfortable in my surroundings! I KNEW I was at home 
helping someone from another country get use to my area. 
5. I had actual conversation with the nurses as we waited for the IV's to need changing. Not just
the little where are you from, how old are you, but actual conversations. I need these so! 
6. If I can get through this here, I think I am ready to help my brother when he 
goes through a similar experience in the future!
7. I have been battling illness ever since the APU students left. I think
I ran myself down during their visit so I was easily able to catch the
cold that is going around. It was in my head first and then moved to my chest. Two nights 
ago I was having a hard time sleeping due to feeling like my lungs were going to exhume themselves during one of  the many coughing fits. Yet this morning I had very little coughing!


We got back at about  6:30, and I helped her
clean her bathroom first, then hopped in the shower
before heading to get some breakfast. I got to sit in the dark classroom 
a for a little while before anyone else arrived.
Not really sure how much I got out of my classes today! haha!
I was there though, that was the important part to me! 
I have not missed a single class this semester for any 
reason and I want to end with that perfect attendance.
{I am a tad worried that this is a bad pride issue!}
It was rough getting through my classes! The tiredness was expected
but the dizziness, nausea, and body aches weren't! 
My boss had seen my text messages before class and
had told me I could take the day off from work, 
so I went right up to my room at 11:40 and 
almost literately passed out in my bed. 
I stayed in that state until about 4:30-5. 

My day was then made again when I was able to get
Skype to work in calling a land line, so I could call and surprise my Dad
at work for his birthday! 

#ItsTheLittleThings 
{and sometimes the scary things!} 

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Uh oh! They saw me!

I just found out that two of my teachers talk about me when I am not around! 
*Gasp*
Now, I do wish it was for a better reason, but it was still pretty sweet none the less.
Two of the teachers I am the closest to have noticed
that my 可乐 {pop} intake has increased!
LOL! BUSTED!
I was just talking to one of them and she said
"We were talking about how much pop you drink! You seem to
be drinking it all the time! Its not good for you!" 
She was sincerely worried!
Now, again, I would rather be spoken of for a different reason
other than my bad diet habits, but it is nice to know that they
see whats going on in the lives of their students, take note and
worry about it for them. {I thought about saying,
'Cola has never once made me late for class....
the other students drink way more beer than I do Coke!' but I didn't}
I told her that I too had noticed that I had picked up this bad habit the last couple of weeks
and had plans to pull way back. {She suggested I just quit..not pull back or little by little slow down!}
Honestly now, its not like it is out of control or anything,
and I still drink a ton of lemonade, tea, coffee, and water!
But recently with being so busy I have been more and more sleepy during class. 
I was grabbing a cold coke or orange soda in the break of my
morning class, and it seems it was noted! :) 
I was thankful that I was holding an iced black tea at the time that she 
mentioned it and not a pop! haha! 
#ItsTheLittleThings

That aw moment was followed by a second
one when the same teacher asked if, after the exams
are done, I would teach her how to make something
that I brought to share with the class once. 

Chocolate chip cookies! 

Monday, June 8, 2015

Down this path, not sure yet where it ends....

The sun was super bright and hot today!
It was amazing!
#ItsTheLittleThings
After having been 'stuck' all day in windowless rooms, 
I had to get out for a bit once my work was finished!
The plan was just to sort of meander around, mostly campus
maybe a bit down RenMin Luo 人民路.
An hour and a half later, with blisters on both feet from
the sandals I didn't bother changing due to
it 'only' being a short walk, I hobbled back onto campus
and grabbed some dinner. 
I went down a couple roads I've not been down in a long time,
and some I have never ventured on! 
At the beginning of my walk I looked down one path and 
made a mental note to someday find where it led,only to find that the
turns I took later in my walk found me right back at that very spot!
It allowed me to view campus from a side I've never seen before,
which I thought was really awesome!
#ItsTheLittleThings
All throughout my walk, though, what struck me
was how pretty this city is and how much I am going to miss
living here. Not even two months now before I head back to
the States! OH MY GOODNESS I'M GOING TO AMERICA!
#ItsTheLittleThings
Funny enough, I got stared at more during this walk then I have 
been in forever. Not sure if it was due to wearing a tank top 
and it being all the more evident just how white I am,
or what the deal was. People were actually slowing their cars and
bikes down to look! haha! A couple times I got pretty self conscious
and had to look down to see if  there was something wrong! 
I was able to walk long enough to get blisters on my feet!
#ItsTheLittleThings!

















See, its not just my campus that's beautiful!
Xinzheng is a nice place to live!














I was being poetic in my head when I took this photo. 
The steps lead up to a wall. So, they go nowhere at the moment. 
BUT, when whatever is on the other side of that wall is finished, 
they will already be ready for it. I was thinking of how this 
is the way we should be in our lives. We are told to be ready at 
a moments notice, to ask without wavering or shadow of doubt. 
I like the story told in the movie 'Facing the Giants'
of the man who goes out to plant his field even though
there has not been rain in weeks. He was preparing for rain.
I feel like that is what this photo shows. They are prepared for
the way when it comes, and they know that it will be there at some point
even though here {in China} things can change so quickly as well as take forever to complete. 
Yeah...I got that all from a staircase up to a blue metal wall!




You can't really see them, but there was a row of birds sitting on the
line out in the street tonight when I went out for another stroll.....
ok, I went out and got ice cream/a popsicle. 
They were cute!